So terrible. I have no motivation to do ANYTHING
bleaugh.


no motivation to do work, no motivation to go to lectures, no motivation to blog. no nothing. i just feel like staying in bed, wrapped in my cosy duvet, and watch House all day long. It doesnt even need to be House, it can be whatever.


i think its the essays. Why didnt we have like a break straight after essays?? Normally when we pass a milestone like essays (ok, exagerrated, but still.), we have a break. But NO. Hmmph.


Well, okay, i have motivation to walk around aimlessly. and to eat. oh, how i love to eat.

food food food food food.


i actually made up a list yesterday with nick about the places i want to go to eat. and we ended up with enough places to eat for twelve weeks. Well, one place for every week. Im not that big of a pig YET. operative word being yet.

Hmm, just thought of something. maybe it wasnt because of the essays. maybe it was just because i've been going out too often. Seriously. I've gone out like every night of the week after the end of essays. Walking around aimlessly, clubbing, parties, drinking. Maybe i just tired myself out. I think i need some quiet time to myself to watch movies, and be a couch potato.
actually, i dont mean that. i dont wanna be a loner. i want someone to watch movies with and be a couch potato with.

bleaugh. i want that feeling of home. the couches, and the big beds, and the mountains of pillows, i want to be part of a group of people sitting down at a dining table eating, and after that snuggling down on the couch, huddled up together, watching tv and cracking jokes at the people on the show. Actually, i've just described things that a couple do together. maybe i just want to have that being part of a relationship feeling again. I feel like i dont now. well, also, i still want that home feeling.


bleaugh. im rambling, and im not making sense to myself. blah.